Historically, we were penpals for 2-3 years, adored each other...professionally, of course. He was everything I wanted in a friend. We debated, we argued, we improved each other's work. Then we met, and it fell apart. We were nothing like what the other anticipated. We tried to hate each other, like a bad breakup. The last five years, we worked in the same lab in a steadily dwindling department, tension and rivalry between us, until it broke and he saved my life.
Currently, we're... Well, we're not engaged, because Hermann wants to wait. He wants to sort out the bugs first, but we're engaged to be engaged? It's there, been discussed, just on hold. Idk. I want it to work, obviously, but in person, we've never gotten along. We thrive on the conflict, debate. We thrive on having a shared scientific goal to destroy ourselves working towards. I'm afraid that we don't know how to get along or will get bored of compromise. We only know how to fight.
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Date: 2016-03-25 04:32 pm (UTC)Historically, we were penpals for 2-3 years, adored each other...professionally, of course. He was everything I wanted in a friend. We debated, we argued, we improved each other's work. Then we met, and it fell apart. We were nothing like what the other anticipated. We tried to hate each other, like a bad breakup. The last five years, we worked in the same lab in a steadily dwindling department, tension and rivalry between us, until it broke and he saved my life.
Currently, we're... Well, we're not engaged, because Hermann wants to wait. He wants to sort out the bugs first, but we're engaged to be engaged? It's there, been discussed, just on hold. Idk. I want it to work, obviously, but in person, we've never gotten along. We thrive on the conflict, debate. We thrive on having a shared scientific goal to destroy ourselves working towards. I'm afraid that we don't know how to get along or will get bored of compromise. We only know how to fight.