random loose threads

[driftsintobuffetline]

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2016
January 29 - Returning from Submarining
February 13 - What are you thoughts on MARRIAGE?
February 16 - Day 1, Soviet Occupied Import Cities
March 12 - They were supposed to talk about Miles and Greg, but talked about themselves instead
April 14th - Kinks, Tatts, and Power Suppression
June - Admiring the Ring
July 27 - Hermann's New Car
After the Kaiju Test - Need a New Apartment

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[driftsintobuffetline]

Break Hiro's little shipper heart, it would serve him right. Make him suffer for his sins. But yes, Newt wanted the kid there, for one, because he was their friend, but also because he was probably the first to express actual investment (however teasingly) in them being together, as opposed to just trying to speculate or win a JTech bet...and there was something very valuable about that.

But Hermann's next words made Newt stop short and frown. A short engagement was fine and dandy and he was quite okay with being courted and doing courting and making this take a while, but what the hell did Hermann mean when he said they'd averted disaster? Really, was Newt's proposal that unwelcome without forewarning? Did Hermann think Newt would have fucked it up? He would have done just fine, okay, down on one knee and everything and--yes, okay, it was very good they had this talk because he might not have ever actually proposed otherwise (except ...he wouldn't have been able to not... not with Joaquin and Hiro breathing down his neck to do so, but...)...but a right mess? They would have sorted themselves out. They always did.

They did...

Shit, thanks a lot, Hermann, now he was getting paranoid.

"Why would it have been a mess? What, you wouldn't have said 'yes'?"

[mathemagier]

He'd always been regrettably susceptible to social blunders, particularly in an interpersonal context, and the recognition of this failing left him feeling fairly contrite.

"Unfortunately, I believe I would have refused on the basis of needing more time while also not entirely sure you were aware of what you were asking for." As far as his disease went along with that flawed, imperfect future that promised endless complication.

"I doubt you would have taken that gracefully. I may also have failed to explain properly, and suffice to say it would have taken some time to sort that all out."

[driftsintobuffetline]

He begrudgingly admitted to himself that Hermann had a point. Yes, he would not have accepted a refusal very gracefully and it was impossible to speculate exactly HOW that would have gone down, but it would have gone downhill fast. And that was frightening, to think of how that little refusal of a thing they hadn't even discussed wanting, and Newt hadn't even fully expected Hermann to agree to anyway, would have triggered all sorts of fear and abandonment and loneliness and feelings of inadequacy and the split years ago when their meet-up went sour and the thought of losing Hermann again and--

It was abundantly clear: he wanted very much to spend his life with Hermann. And it scared him to think he could have fucked that up and missed his chance again.

"Well, glad we didn't go THAT route. But we're good now, right? I mean, anything else you want to discuss?" He stroked his thumb over Hermann's wrist, just under the wristband of the watch. "I know you're working on some longterm plans up in that head of yours, but if you're not ready to share with the class, I'm fine with that. Or if you want my input, I mean, so you have the variables, or whatever? What is going to make this work?" They were both pretty socially inept, but it had worked to lay it all out on the table before. They could try that again.