He gets the impression it's better he quelled that impulse. Too soon, he feels come back at him, and Newt wonders if it will ever be the right time. They've agreed to marry, basically, but...
They're committed. He can't forget that. Hermann's not going to just...well, he might, but where would he go...? Newt's just got to be patient, fit into the plan...Hermann's plan. He can't scare him away...again.
Still, the disappointment is heavy and immense, because he knows Hermann can see through his quick change, his save, knows Hermann knows what Newt almost did, and the refusal feels like Hermann has actually refused what Newt didn't say. It's twisted and dumb--he didn't ASK, didn't want to ask NOW, talked HIMSELF out of it--but that doesn't change how it hurts. He lowers the ring, frowning at it like the little thing has betrayed him, and settles on the watch.
The watch makes him feel so...proud, even as the refusal still stings. When Hermann sees that watch, he thinks of Newt, Hong Kong, the two of them together. It's enough. It has to be. It might be all they ever get.
"Dude, you don't need to reciprocate every offer, it's ok." He rubbed Hermann's back. "We'll be out of here before I need anything anyway. But I planned to wear my jacket. I'd spring for a tatt if I thought it'd stay."
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Date: 2016-03-06 03:49 am (UTC)They're committed. He can't forget that. Hermann's not going to just...well, he might, but where would he go...? Newt's just got to be patient, fit into the plan...Hermann's plan. He can't scare him away...again.
Still, the disappointment is heavy and immense, because he knows Hermann can see through his quick change, his save, knows Hermann knows what Newt almost did, and the refusal feels like Hermann has actually refused what Newt didn't say. It's twisted and dumb--he didn't ASK, didn't want to ask NOW, talked HIMSELF out of it--but that doesn't change how it hurts. He lowers the ring, frowning at it like the little thing has betrayed him, and settles on the watch.
The watch makes him feel so...proud, even as the refusal still stings. When Hermann sees that watch, he thinks of Newt, Hong Kong, the two of them together. It's enough. It has to be. It might be all they ever get.
"Dude, you don't need to reciprocate every offer, it's ok." He rubbed Hermann's back. "We'll be out of here before I need anything anyway. But I planned to wear my jacket. I'd spring for a tatt if I thought it'd stay."