Tears prick at his eyes as he watches Hermann--steady, solid, proud Hermann--unravel. He used to get mad at Newt when he was upset and stressed, now they can't (won't?) use each other quite that harshly and it hurts, because he would rather be screamed at and have it out than have Hermann suffer like he is.
"Hermann..." He's stressed and he's started to cry, both for himself and for Hermann, because someone was going to break and release this pent up frustration and Hermann has just been snapping and throwing things and Newt has always broken first. The cane against the door has left him with goosebumps--and a hysterical Hermann is terrifying to him. Angry Hermann still has some control, some confidence, but they've passed that threshold and fallen into a state where Hermann is so insecure, so out of his own rigid control, that he doesn't actually know what to do with himself. Newt isn't sure he's ever really seen Hermann so hysterical, so entirely upset and not AT HIM. He's used to rising to fight. He's not used to this.
Newt reaches for his partner, trying to put his arms around Hermann properly, to pull him close. He's never been comforting, but Hermann needs that and Newt needs to learn to be strong when Hermann is not, because the reverse has been true for too long without reciprocation. Being strong would be so much easier if Newt wasn't breaking down too. "Dude, Hermann. You're my hero. I didn't--I didn't mean to burden you with the title--I didn't, really--" he says through tearful gasps, "you can't take this all on yourself; you're my hero, not my savior, Hermann." His voice breaks on the last syllable as he places his hands on either side of Hermann's face, but he's not sure what to say, so he just holds him.
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"Hermann..." He's stressed and he's started to cry, both for himself and for Hermann, because someone was going to break and release this pent up frustration and Hermann has just been snapping and throwing things and Newt has always broken first. The cane against the door has left him with goosebumps--and a hysterical Hermann is terrifying to him. Angry Hermann still has some control, some confidence, but they've passed that threshold and fallen into a state where Hermann is so insecure, so out of his own rigid control, that he doesn't actually know what to do with himself. Newt isn't sure he's ever really seen Hermann so hysterical, so entirely upset and not AT HIM. He's used to rising to fight. He's not used to this.
Newt reaches for his partner, trying to put his arms around Hermann properly, to pull him close. He's never been comforting, but Hermann needs that and Newt needs to learn to be strong when Hermann is not, because the reverse has been true for too long without reciprocation. Being strong would be so much easier if Newt wasn't breaking down too. "Dude, Hermann. You're my hero. I didn't--I didn't mean to burden you with the title--I didn't, really--" he says through tearful gasps, "you can't take this all on yourself; you're my hero, not my savior, Hermann." His voice breaks on the last syllable as he places his hands on either side of Hermann's face, but he's not sure what to say, so he just holds him.